I’ve been on a rather arduous journey to self-awareness the past several years.
As anyone who’s boarded that train will tell you it’s a journey rife with doubt, confusion, imagined troubles, sadness, gloom, joy, sorrow, elation, depression, discouragement, victory, relief, anger, grief, pain, ups, downs, happiness … you get the picture. It’s just been an h-e-double hockey sticks of a ride, and I am under no illusion that it’s over. As long as there is life there is room for more self-awareness … as long as you board that train, that is.
And really, I’m okay with that. I’m much happier with where I am now than where I was when this journey began. I just wish I’d thought to leave the station called “Stuck” sooner.
But then, I appear to be a late bloomer anyway, so the timing for all of this is likely perfect … as perfect goes.
Better to be late than never arrive at all.
How’s your journey going?
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Doubts and Troubles
Sometimes everything seems clear;
All doubts and troubles disappear.
While other times around me tease
Those thoughts that drop me to my knees.
They toy with circuits in my mind,
So to my self I am unkind,
And make me feel like I am dead
Inside to all my soul’s been fed.
Self-preservation numbs all sense
And life is lived in self-defense.
But as we know this is a lie
For in this mode inside we die.
Tis best to feel what life’s about
It gives us strength, inside and out.
Then thoughts will have a chance to clear
While doubts and troubles disappear.
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Thanks for reflecting with me …
Dorothy
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